So cruel...So far

Its all born from the sense of disgust this cursed year has burdened upon me now.I tried my best to accept it with a smile...bt regrettably everything has gone to vain.

Beginning like all the other seventeen years I have survived, I won't believe it to be my fault to think this one belong to the same sort. Again a pawn of destiny.....I feel cheated over and over my this deceptive first-sight impression.Is it such ruthless a mistake to pay heed to the first call of intuition? I earnestly passed the days so far...in the elusive search of optimism. But darkness hovered over and over.Yet again, many a times, I ran to get blinded by the gloomy fate brought for me by this year. But every time hit upon a solid, promising rock..clutch onto it hard..and hopscotch through the odds with the hope of retreiving back with some flying colours.

I fail to behold,that colours have left me quite long ago...leaving some long meticulously-nursed memories awashed in the colours of despair and gloom. I knew I've been fooled again; for I've only learnt to birth them, rear them up...and never did I harness the zeal to pull them off before the world, eagerly waiting to pull me down again...render false consolations...and again get me bathed all over in the colours of defeat...in black and white.